A note I wrote to myself
Hi, I am Drew Douglass (yes two "s", helps to remember doogl-ass, ha). About a decade ago I bought this URL. I had no idea what I'd do with it besides use it for email and maybe a portfolio site? The name just felt like mine at the time and it was cheap so I figured why not.
A few days ago I wrote a note to myself trying to talk myself into using this domain. The note was scary to write. Publishing it is scarier. I'm publishing it anyway, lightly cleaned up, because the version of me who needs to start saying things out loud is the version who wrote this note. Not the cleaner version who would write a polished introduction.
So here it is. Me, talking to me, a few days before now.
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You know the answer here and you know it will be extremely uncomfortable at first. But...what if you just were totally open with the world? Your flaws, what you've learned, all of it. Even when it's scary to put into writing because *what might others think*, or *nah that feels like bragging*, or *who am I to say anything, I barely know wtf I'm doing.*
I think the truth, deep down, is that a ton of people feel the way I do, deeply, on many topics. They just don't talk about it. Or hide it, which is understandable and also very human.
So...maybe I can be courageous enough and start talking about it. Life. Humanity. Wellness Apps. Mental health. Exestential questions or thoughts. What it means to be to be a Leader in any vocation. Whatever comes up.
And the key is...really let Drew be Drew. Trust your gut. You don't need every little detail. But you don't need to soften it either. Let them see all the imperfections. I know what I am about and who I am inside, and I will let them see the good, bad, and ugly. Even if that is scary and uncomfortable. **Because I believe it will help others and in doing so help me.**
I can FEEL in my gut that if I take this leap, it will do good for SOMEONE out there.
You DO have insight and so much to share. I know you are afraid for multiple reasons. That is OKAY. I love you for that and that's normal. Fear isn't bad, I am just going to do it scared to death.
But...it's time for me to be me to the world. If not soon, can I really say I fully lived? If I never expressed anything like that with the world, never shared it?
Feels like bragging? Okay it probably is not, but then I'll just say that this feels like bragging and share it anyway. Feels embarrassing? Doesn't matter. Well, it matters. But okay. That's a chance to befriend that discomfort, or at least sit with it.
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That's the note. I wrote it to myself.
I don't yet know what this site is going to be. Probably a mix. Writing. Voice. Things I've learned. Things I'm still figuring out. I'm not promising a schedule. I'm not promising a theme. I'm just promising it'll be me.
--Drew Douglass (aka Doogl-ass aka SillyDroose aka a fellow human) 🪷
